Ok, so I haven’t really publicly said anything about this situation.  So here it is.  Its fucked.  Fucked, fucked, and a little more fucked.

Timeline of events in a nutshell:

• Aserwarth contacts me at quakecon saying he has something urgent to talk about.  But then says it can wait till I get back.
• Aserwarth begs me to get on vent while I was recovering from Quakecon (yes it does take a while)
• Aserwarth and I get on vent with frost and some other folks who propose an issue they have with Socrates
• I listen to them because that is who I am.  I give people the benefit of the doubt.
• —I meditate on the issue
• Aserwarth bugs me and calls me to get the “course of action” taken
• I post a thread in a private forum among only the founders and community leaders
• Aserwarth realizes he dun goofed and instead of working through the problems, he splits off with frost
• Aserwarth lies to members and takes private information public
• People follow suit in hopes GG is a “better place”
• People say things they should have said months before but for some fucked up reason, didn’t
• I lost respect for a lot of people
• F7 became quiet

The world is a cruel place sometimes.  GG members that may or may not read my blog: On my steam friends list? Got the tags on? Your fucking blocked.  Don’t try to contact me.  Clown, what the fuck were you thinking asking me to help them with the community? Are you dense?

Greetings fellow f0rkzneters.  I guess in my drunken haze Saturday, I set up a TF2 server complete with stats!  24/7 2fort.  I think I was angry F7 didn’t have one, so I made a better one with blackjack and hookers.

Well, I’ll be.  I even added a hostname for it! I was a determined drunk on Saturday!

tf.f0rkznet.net:27015

Quakecon is right around the corner.  Who is going?  I certainly am!

Time went by, and I hit highway 92.  A split second decision sent me that way to go to the store.  While I was driving to the store, I heard Mancow warn people again, “It is extremely important, listeners, that you pull over when this next segment comes on.  Do not drive!  Change the station if you can not pull over.”  So I begin to think to myself, what could be so interesting that requires a warning not to drive.

Feeling let down because I anticipated hearing the segment, I went into the store.  I spent about 30 to 40 minutes in there meandering about.  After getting what I needed and heading to my car, the segment still didn’t come on yet.  The warnings about not driving or operating heavy machinery reverberated through my mind as I trekked up highway 575 to my exit.

After exiting the highway at my designated exit, I pulled up to the Quik Trip.  Lo and behold, the segment finally started! I pulled into a space in an obscure area of the parking lot and intently listened to the radio.  A very calming and soothing Australian guy came on the radio and explained what he was going to do.  He briefed us on the facts that he was a hypnotic therapist and would hypnotize all of us on the radio.  ”This will be good” I thought sarcastically shrugging it off.  Me being a skeptic, I am always willing to try something at least once.

Needless to say, it was a state of extreme relaxation and bliss.  It worked! I was extremely enticed to continue this process so I went to his website, and downloaded his free mp3s.

Last night I tried it.  I have never been so relieved of all my worries, all my anxiety, and all of my fears.  I can do anything that I put my mind and effort to.  I can manifest anything that I can think of, in the realm of possibility.  This all sounds crazy now, but just listen to it and try it.  You can thank me later.

Here is Rick Collingwood’s website.

If you want to take a trial run of the mp3′s, here they are.

Isn’t that the truth.  Weekends are never long enough.  Granted, I had a great weekend.  Friday night I got to hang with my pal tricky.  We played some games and got to watch a few movies.  One movie in particular was Gentlemen Broncos. To say the least, this movie was pure hilarity.  Although, I do not think it will get the same following as Napolean Dynamite. It was still a rather interesting movie.  I also saw Surrogates while I was over there.  I do have to say, I liked Surrogates it had a really good message.

Saturday I got to see my family.  I miss being able to see them on a day to day basis.  Later in the day Michelle and I headed back to Canton.  We spent the weekend enjoying each other’s presence.  Today we ventured out to Walmart and got a few things that were needed around the house.  I cracked the toilet seat a while back, so we had to get a new one (fat ass, I know!).  We had lunch at CiCi’s Pizza, and it was as good as CiCi’s can be.  I would rather have Stivi Bee’s over CiCi’s any day, but we didn’t have that option available to us at the time.

One thing I’ve noticed over the years, is how taken I am with her.  Everything she says to me is like music to my ears.  No one is able to make me feel happy like she does.  Its quite strange because most of the time people make me uneasy or upset.  Michelle has a way about her.  She just knows exactly how to make me smile.  It is also very hard to hide my mood from her, because she usually picks up on it very quick.  I thought I was a complicated person, but I guess not to her! I definitely smile every time I think of her.  We are coming up on two years since we decided to start dating.  I usually get tired of the other person, or grow bored with the same thing every day.  Not her.  Everything is new and fun no matter what we do.  No doubt, I’m in love.

Had a good night tonight.  Got to hang with Hal which was good because I don’t really have that much time to go out with friends.  I enjoy hanging with Hal mostly because it reminds me of the good times at our place.

Anyhow, its getting late and I don’t really feel completely motivated to write more.  Good night big world!